Emotions

Today and yesterday have been very emotional.  It has been hard to feel like a lot of what is happening is an up hill battle. I can usually maintain a pretty up beat outlook and I know that we have been blessed with much.  I just have had a hard time holding that perspective the last couple days.  Then this morning I had a really weird dream and woke up cold so it didn't start very well.  Well, here is to hoping that tonight is restful and peaceful and that morning brings a renewed sense of gratitude for being able to wear a pair of shoes again.  Maybe tomorrow will also bring an answer to the question, "Where are we moving to?"  Well, here's to continuing the growth process.  Blessings!

Packing

Well, I packed two boxes today and put together another bag of stuff to give away.  Sometimes it is really hard to do this.  Sometimes it is almost easy.  I have been thinking some about the differences.  When I am feeling good and feeling blessed, then packing or giving away stuff comes fairly easy.  When I am feeling aggravated or depressed, it is all very hard to do.  I think if I can find some inspiration, like a good simplify your life article or a how to get organized quickly thing then that would be good.  I have a great book on simplify your life.  It is packed in a box that still hasn't been unpacked from our last move in January.  Maybe this time I will get all the boxes emptied and sorted.  Well, I will worry about that when we get to the next place.  Blessings.

Here we go again!

Oi-vay!  Moving.  Yet another opportunity to go through the stuff and pare down.  Definitely getting better at giving away stuff.  So tired of moving boxes that we don't even get to open because we don't have enough space.  Would really like to live somewhere with a huge workroom that we could finally sort everything out and line up what we have and get rid of the duplicates, extras, things we never use...  It is hard to keep sorting a box at a time on top of other boxes or the bed you need to clear off to sleep in.  Well, maybe someday.  When the books get published then I'll start with the big kitchen for Chef and then the big craft/sew/write room for us.  Actually, a couple of yurts and a good fire pit would work for now.  First things first...have to find a place.  Have our eyes on a great little apartment.  Hope they call next week and say they'll have one available for us in November.  Oi-vay!  Blessings to all.  Send some back, we can use them.

Sunshine

Yesterday was dry for most of the day.  Just a few sprinkles late in the evening.  Had time for lots of things to dry out.  Looks pretty good for today too.  Had an interesting conversation yesterday that basically boiled down to accepting people where they are.  And then choosing how you are going to interact with them or even if you are.  I have several situations currently where I am having to choose how to interact with a few people. 

One I have to interact with but I am choosing to just be cordial and choosing not to stir things up.  Anything I say will not be accepted with respect or even seen as possibly valuable so I shall not waste any of my breath of life trying to convince them of something they have no intention of hearing from me.  This has become obvious when something I suggested several months ago that was shot down has now been readily accepted because it came from another source.  I am glad they have finally chosen to do something that might make their life a little easier.  I am also glad to know exactly where I rank in terms of their perception of value.  I am also very glad that my value is not based on what they think of me.

Another individual has chosen not to interact with me, at least not directly at this time.  This is great because it gives me time to determine how I will choose to interact with them when the time comes, which it will eventually.  This one at first appears that it will be tougher but what I am realizing as I type this is they are exactly the same.  I can choose to be cordial and not stir things up.  I can also choose not to extend myself in that direction just to provide an opportunity to be disrespected again.  The only difference will be choosing to step up when they choose to disrespect one of my elders.  My task now is learning how to do that with grace and beauty.  It is learning to draw exactly where my boundaries are and then standing up for them. 
Blessings.

Thunders with the rain

This is our third day of rain and the thunders have come with it today.  The ground is as saturated as can be and the grass is close to 7 inches high.  We have caught back up but now need a few days to let waters receed and to dry out a bit.  Even the mail in the box got wet from the humidity and the rain.  It also makes getting around in a walking boot a little tough.  Puddles and mud are not friends when you can run and jump in them. 

Well, it seems to have settled down for the moment.  At least the rain is coming straight down.  James would say it's a fine Scottish day, rain coming down straight, sun peaking through in places and not even cold.  Guess that makes it a fine day for some Mulligan Stew. 

Hope it is a blessing, whether it is wet or dry, wherever you are.

Rainy day

It has rained for the last four hours.  It started as a light sprinkle and very quickly became a heavy downpour.  The downpour lasted for a short while and then faded back to a quiet drizzle again.  It built to a heavy rain for short moments but has mostly been a steady light rain.  It has made me think about the ebb and flow of lots of things, including writing.  It also has me thinking about characters and how they develop.  Usually beings have growth spurts and leveling off periods.  Some, like yours truly, occasionally have stubborn periods where we insist on doing things the hard way, or the hard headed way.  Very few, in fact none that I have met arrive fully developed and have no learning or growing to do.  So, now I need to read my own words and go apply it to my characters.  They developed nicely through the first book but need to continue in the next.  Blessings.

Long time gone

Sorry I have been away for a bit. Doing a lot of other writing. Working on a series of books. Trying to figure out the process for finding the correct agent. Think I may have stumbled on to the right one for me. We'll see. Now doing research on how to send a query or pitch letter.

Hope you are well.
Many blessings.