FOUR

Lord cleanse me of anything that breaks your heart.

 I think we all have days that it is easy to beat ourselves up for things we perceive that we have done wrong, or even not handled as best we could. I know I can be very harsh with myself for not doing things a certain way. The interesting thing though, if you handle something the same way and then tell me you are displeased with yourself for not doing better, I will be compassionate with you. I will say things like, "You're so busy already" or "it's really okay." 

I have found myself several times this week wondering how I can be so understanding and compassionate with you and then call myself names for not getting something done. Then I read this, "Love your neighbor as yourself."  

But I heard, "Love yourself as your neighbor."

I am coming to believe that when I treat myself as anything less than a blessed child of a caring Creator, I am breaking Creator's heart. I have always been able to see you as a worthy and loved creation. But I still struggle with seeing myself that way. I love the little reminders and sayings that crop up occasionally on social media. 

"You're a ghost driving a meat coated skeleton made from stardust, what do you have to be scared of?" 

"On the darkest days when I feel inadequate, unloved and unworthy, I remember whose daughter I am and I straighten my Crown!"

But they don't sustain me. I need to allow myself to be both human and a divine creation at the same time. I need to embed in that skeleton made of stardust the DNA connected to that crown. I can clearly see it in you. Do you see it in me or others? Maybe we can remind ourselves by reminding each other.