NINETEEN

Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.

I don’t know how many hours, years I invested in trying to be something or someone else. Trying to be that which I thought you wanted me to be. I layered on all kinds of labels and ideas. Made all sorts of choices to like or dislike what you did so I could be what I thought you wanted me to be. Eventually, a day came when I did something I wanted to do, something I enjoyed. And you know what, the world didn’t fall apart. Nobody came running down the road yelling at me to stop being myself. That was the moment I began unbecoming. I’m still working on chipping away all those things I layered over top of me. All those protections I put in place trying to look like or fit in. Today, I will watch for any that still remain and work on removing them too. I believe I was created for a special purpose. I can’t fulfill my purpose if I am still busy trying to fulfill yours.