TWELVE

“My spiritual discipline would be better characterized as undisciplined. As with many people, I suspect, my prayer life becomes much more active and intentional when a crisis arises.” Josephine Hicks

I think this is why I started this project. I have done pretty well over the years of saying, “Good morning God.” I have not gotten very good at doing consistently more than that. I am doing my best to ask on a daily basis what God would like for me, with God’s help, to accomplish today. I try to remember to ask that in the morning, before I leave the house. Sometimes, I remember by lunchtime, or mid-afternoon. And, yes, some evenings I get to the end of my day and I have to say, I hope we accomplished what you wanted today.” Then I ask for help to remember earlier tomorrow.

When someone I love is having a hard time, physically or emotionally, I am much better at remembering. Every time they cross my thoughts, I offer them up into Creator’s hands. Thing is, I forget to put myself there when I am the one who is struggling physically or emotionally.

What I have stopped doing is beating myself up, calling myself a bad person because I forgot. I believe my God knows my heart and my intentions. I believe my God hears the prayers that I forgot to give voice or words.

“the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans too deep for words,” Romans 8:26